So I've grown into this habit of staying up ridiculously late and waking up with just enough time to get ready and go pick up Harper. Now I'm down to my last week of vacation left. Ah I feel like I wasted it or something. I mean in some aspects it was good because I got to think a lot about my life and what I needed to improve, goals I wanted to accomplish, etc. I think I've pretty much got, at least, the next couple years set out for me. I've decided to change my major to communications or something related to that. My boss has frequently expressed how efficient I am and how he would love to have someone like me work for his company. His wife said that they would give me a job in the future if I'm qualified since they think I'm doing such a great job right now. That basically means I just need a degree of some sort. We'll see what happens with that, but there's no way I can move back now when I have so many connections down here. I mean, this industry is one of the hardest to get into and I already have one foot in the door. I can't let that pass by me. As much as moving back in with my parents sounds like the smarter thing to do, it is the easy route and I don't want to do something just because it's easier. So I'll have to make a few more sacrifices in order to live down here, so be it. I'll do it because I know I can. I think watching Harper so much lately has made me realize how much I miss my parents. Her mom is in France right now and won't be returning for another three weeks. Hey, if she ends up staying there for that long, I might get to go to the Oscars! haha, anyway, as I was saying... Another thing I've noticed how possessive I am of her. It really does feel like she is my daughter, or at least, my younger sister. I love the relationship we have, and even though the past couple days have been a little rocky between us, I feel like she really does care about me on a level more than just her nanny. I know her parents and I are closer. Her mom and I have always been pretty close but her dad was always cold to me. Now, I always stay for dinner and it feels like I'm apart of their family. In other aspects of my life, I have quit smoking completely! I don't even crave one at all, but I fear the worst is yet to come. I've been handling my money better, and actually have more than twenty dollars in my savings heh which is more than usual. I've been reading more, eating healthier, just overall trying to improve my life since I can focus on it fully right now. Although, I cannot wait to get back to school. I dearly miss it. I miss feeling smart haha I guess the only thing I'm still not too happy about is that Jeff is back. I mean, I'm happy he's in my life, but I dont know. We're just hanging out, nothing too serious and whatnot. It's not like I'm sleeping with him, we just hang out and talk. Since I don't have too many friends here that have the time to hang out with me, it's nice. I can only take so much of my sister, especially since she finds it necessary to drink herself to sleep every single night. It's really saddening and pathetic. I don't really know how to approach her other than to tell her she's going to become an alcoholic if she doesn't stop. She says she can't fall asleep without something. Oh boy. So apart from my living situation and dealing with that, I'm pretty content with how things are. Things can always improve, but that's coming from a perfectionist. I only have ahead to look at and I'm greatly excited of what it has to bring for me.
90. First off, what is your name?
lindsey
89. What did you do yesterday?
went to the store, went to dinner, cleaned my room, played typing of the dead
88. Do you have a best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
yes a couple
87. Do you have any siblings?
two sisters one brother
86. How many years apart ARE* your mom and dad?
two weeks
85. What's your favorite color?
purple
84. What does the 7th message in your text in box say?
too lazy to get my phone
83. Who sits beside you in math?
I don't know anyone in my class, I keep to myself
82. Where is your dad right now?
probably at work
81. Do you burn incense?
yes
80. Do you have a problem?
small, unimportant problems
79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
again too lazy to get my phone
78. Closest purple object?
dog leash
77. Closest silver object?
necklace
76. Closest yellow object?
cat toy
75. Do you sing in the shower?
not lately, walls are paper thin
74. What is bugging you right now?
school
73. How does your hair look right now?
cute!
72. Do you know all the words to the Star Spangled Banner?
yes
71. When is the last time you said the pledge of allegiance?
middle school when they made us say it every morning
70. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
no one. keep the peace!
69. Do you have any fears?
yes
68. What do you hear right now?
sme indie movie I'm watching
67. Do you like kangaroos?
sure
66. Can you roll your tongue?
yeah
65. What are you wearing?
jeans, jacket, shoes
64. Who was the last person to message you?
either ekan or laura
63. Do you like emo kids?
no, theyre a mess.
62. Screamo or Country?
country
61. Rock or Rap?
rock
60. Polka or Disco?
disco
59. Flying or Driving?
driving
58. Who last called you?
ekan
57. Was your last Valentines day nice?
I think I stayed home or was at practice
56. What are you doing now?
wasting time instead of being in class
55. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
maman
54. Would you die for someone?
yes
53. Would you date anyone from your work?
nooo, theyre happily married and old! and harper is too young haha
52. Do long distance relationships work?
nope
51. Do you have any pet peeves?
I'm a neat freak, clutter makes me uneasy, incorrect grammar, I guess I'm pretty uptight ha
50. Do you have to pee right now?
in a little
49. When did you last talk to one of your siblings?
this morning when Denise dropped off her dog
48. What are you doing tomorrow?
school, work, homework, lab
47. Do you worry about getting older?
no
46. Have you ever had an ingrown toenail?
uhh I dont think so....
45. Do you pick your scabs?
ew no
44. Would you ever pierce your tongue?
no
43. Do your band aids have cartoons on them?
no sadly
42. Do you bite your nails?
sometimes
41. Do you wear hollister?
no
40. Do you or have you ever had AIM?
yes
39. Do you check xHuh.com for celebrity gossip?
nope. perezhilton.com support it
38. Do you have a jar where you keep your loose change?
no
37. Do you own a pogo stick?
no.
36. Ever gone a whole day without eating?
probably
35. Do you own ripped jeans?
no
34. What makes you mad?
the amount of times I've missed class, I need to get my shit together fast
33. What would you do if you found out that you were adopted?
be shocked since we're all the same
32. Are you jealous a lot of the time?
never
31. Do you use a calendar or day planner to schedule everything on?
I used to but lately I've been out of it, which needs to stop
30. Are you OCD?
about some things
29. Do you have ADD?
noo
28. Do you have low self esteem?
rarely
27. Who can make you laugh during the hardest time?
shana, kieley, joshy
26. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
desperate housewives
25. When was the last time you had professional pictures taken?
stuff for modeling
24. Have you done a whitening treatment on your teeth?
just toothpaste
23. What is your favorite movie?
that's a tough question, right now, I guess les choristes
22. Who do you love?
my friends and family and my puppies!!!
21. What is playing on your MP3 player right now?
nothing
20. What holiday is your birthday closest to?
labor day? or fourth of july, it's in august
19. Whats your favorite drink?
passion tea
18. Do you own any big sunglasses?
nooo
16. Do you know what a tragus piercing is?
yeah, I used to have one of those
15. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
yeah, michael would play the piano for me all the time.
14. Have you ever bungee jumped?
never
13. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
school
12. What's the first thing(s) you notice about the opposite sex?
his eyes when he smiles
11. Is it hard to express your feelings to someone?
just to a select few
10. Why are people such self-centered beings?
darwinism
9. Are you sad?
no
8. Are you happy?
very
7. Favorite day of the year?
any day I'm with my entire family
6. Have you ever licked someones cheek?
yeah haha
5. Watched all Spider man movies?
yes
4. What are you looking forward to?
this weekend, DISNEYLAND with James!! I havent seen him in ages
3. Favorite Lucky Charms Marshmallow?
I dont eat lucky charms
2. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
yes
1. Do you want to get married?
peut-etre, some day